After the season woes
The Holiday season is always so busy starting with Sawyer's birthday and Thanksgiving, which happened to be on the same day this year. Then, into December with shopping and making gifts, and decorating. Then, there is Evi's birthday celebration, followed by Tina's birthday celebration, followed by celebrating Christmas Eve, morning, and evening as a family. We usually have a Christmas party thrown in there somewhere with football coaches. The final celebration is an annual get together with friends on New's Years. Then the festivities end abruptly and we are thrown back into real life.
I love the busyness and excitement of the holiday season. I love the decorations and feasts. I love making Christmas gifts. I love getting together with family. I love Phil's vacation time!!! I loved the unexpected and exciting 'storm of the decade'. I don't love getting back to real life! It is always a let down and a transition to start the New Year. Of course, I make 'resolutions' to make the year better than the last and I put all sorts of pressure on myself to prepare and plan for the inevitable start to the New Year. Complete with being overwhelmed wondering how on Earth I am going to be able to do it!
I will admit to really struggling this week. Homeschooling really got away from me in the latter part of the Fall and I have spent a lot of time printing off and preparing to finish the curriculum I started. So much time in fact, that I begin to feel a little panicky about having time to plan and teach upper grade levels. We have a lot to do this week and I am so very thankful for the time that Phil has at home but I can't help but think that we waste it on trying to get ourselves organized. On the docket (after preschool planning) ,there is grocery shopping for the month, taking down the Christmas tree and decorations, catching up on all the neglected chores including a big house clean, cleaning the garage, cutting firewood, and spending time in Phil's classroom to organize and ready himself for the start of school. I have spent the better part of the past five days feeling quite irritable because I have so many 'obligatory' things to do and no time to do anything that 'I want' to do.
With the Holiday festivities also comes a lack of scheduling, late nights, disorder, etc. that as an adult, I can find a little unsettling at times. Visiting this on three small children is a different story entirely. In my attempt to get things done, I have dumped the responsibility of the children primarily on Phil and have wanted to hide away from everyone and not have to deal with the noise and behavior issues that have cropped up (mind you not because of Phil's lack of competency, just the reality of the past several weeks). I will just say that the New Year will also bring a very large and necessary need to reestablish the expectations in our home and that I will be in prayer for patience and gentle guiding!
So there you have it, my struggles in the wake of the seasonal letdown.
I love the busyness and excitement of the holiday season. I love the decorations and feasts. I love making Christmas gifts. I love getting together with family. I love Phil's vacation time!!! I loved the unexpected and exciting 'storm of the decade'. I don't love getting back to real life! It is always a let down and a transition to start the New Year. Of course, I make 'resolutions' to make the year better than the last and I put all sorts of pressure on myself to prepare and plan for the inevitable start to the New Year. Complete with being overwhelmed wondering how on Earth I am going to be able to do it!
I will admit to really struggling this week. Homeschooling really got away from me in the latter part of the Fall and I have spent a lot of time printing off and preparing to finish the curriculum I started. So much time in fact, that I begin to feel a little panicky about having time to plan and teach upper grade levels. We have a lot to do this week and I am so very thankful for the time that Phil has at home but I can't help but think that we waste it on trying to get ourselves organized. On the docket (after preschool planning) ,there is grocery shopping for the month, taking down the Christmas tree and decorations, catching up on all the neglected chores including a big house clean, cleaning the garage, cutting firewood, and spending time in Phil's classroom to organize and ready himself for the start of school. I have spent the better part of the past five days feeling quite irritable because I have so many 'obligatory' things to do and no time to do anything that 'I want' to do.
With the Holiday festivities also comes a lack of scheduling, late nights, disorder, etc. that as an adult, I can find a little unsettling at times. Visiting this on three small children is a different story entirely. In my attempt to get things done, I have dumped the responsibility of the children primarily on Phil and have wanted to hide away from everyone and not have to deal with the noise and behavior issues that have cropped up (mind you not because of Phil's lack of competency, just the reality of the past several weeks). I will just say that the New Year will also bring a very large and necessary need to reestablish the expectations in our home and that I will be in prayer for patience and gentle guiding!
So there you have it, my struggles in the wake of the seasonal letdown.
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