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It never ceases to amaze me how I can’t seem to find a half and hour to sit down and gather my thoughts long enough to blog. (I have actually been writing this entry for 3 day).

I am really struggling with this whole accident thing. It isn’t so much the physical aspect. Let me explain… Yes, I was injured. It wasn’t so awful that I couldn’t function. My appointments at the chiropractor have included adjustments, therapy (stretching and exercises), and massages. I have been in (or will be in) 5 times in the past two weeks, then down to once a week for the next 3 weeks or so (for now). Yes, it is a bit of a hassle but I am grateful that there is an opportunity for this kind of treatment and that I don’t have to pay for it. Yes, our car was wrecked but it is being fixed here in Silverton at no cost to us and we have a nice rental van to drive. Everything has been done in a timely manner and it should be put behind us by the end of the month.

Here is where my struggle has comes in…..society has an expectation of what I “deserve” out of this accident. The insurance company immediately had a representative out here to have me sign medical releases and then the dreaded (drum roll) pain and suffering topic. She offered me a sum of money for my pain and suffering. What?? Really?? To be spent on whatever I want, not attached to any bills?? I benefit for being in a car wreck?? Thinking about it, yes, I can understand some “compensation”. Phil did take off 2 days from work (he used sick leave), we have been inconvenienced, and I have had pain as a result from the accident? But, my initial WOW what a blessing quickly turned into something else. First, greed keeps popping up. Could I, should I get more? Today, I had three different attorneys send me information in the mail cautioning me about accepting any sort of settlement and not getting “taken advantage of” and offering their services which has only fueled the idea of more, more, more! Second, how can I spend this! I kept thinking of all the things I WANT, fun materialistic things for ME, instead of being responsible and putting it toward the credit card debt we accrued on home improvement projects. This has been really stressful. It has really been a struggle of the flesh and caused me to focus on ME, ME, ME.

In other news….

We went to the coast Friday afternoon (Phil took a sick day because I had a long chiropractic appointment in the morning) and stayed the night. We went to the Tillamook Cheese Factory and watched cheese making. We had pepperoni sticks, cheese curds, and ice cream for dinner. We stayed in a hotel and the kids did surprisingly well. We played at the beach on Saturday and then headed home.

I had a wonderful hour in the garden on Sunday after church. I worked on one of my beds and pruned and weeded. It looks so great. It felt so good to get outside and do something physical. The garden knows that Spring is just around the corner.

And last but not least…our baby laughed for the first time today!!! YEAH!!!

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