The waiting game

I guess the little baby in utero on the side panel doesn’t do days overdo. We are now counting the days that Evangeline is late (2 so far). I don’t have any premonitions. I am uncomfortable but not so much that I feel like any second could be it. I will admit that I have a towel and a pair of pants in the car just in case I am out and about and my water breaks. It would be horrible to drive home all wet! My water broke at the onset of labor with Sawyer but didn’t with Jubilee until I was pushing so who knows how this one will start.

Phil and I debated whether or not he should start his paternity leave today but decided not to use up sick leave unless I was really uncomfortable. He took the latter part of the week off prior to Jubilee’s birth but I was quite miserable and surprised that she didn’t come early!

Waiting is hard to do! Sawyer was 1 day late and Jubilee was 4. The anxiety of labor; the concern over another difficult nursing experience; and the challenge of juggling the needs of a newborn while still being a good Mommy and wife is in the forefront of my mind. I am very frustrated that I can’t seem to get past this. For heavens sake, I have done this twice before!! I know what to expect more or less and Phil is amazing through all of it!!! Ok, enough of all that!

I will end by saying that I love spending time with my children and knowing their little personalities so deeply! They are so much fun and I just fall in love with them more every day. Being a mom is hard work and there are days when I feel like throwing in the towel (like last Friday) but the experience of being a stay at home mom and caretaker of our home is a privilege, a blessing, and an honor. The Lord is so faithful!

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  1. Their GiantDecember 10, 2007 at 10:17 PM

    Emily, thanks for sharing your blog with me. I'm praying for you during these last few days of pregnancy. Claire and I can't wait to meet your newest lil one.

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